Nasal Warzone

Mucous is creating a blockade in my nostrils. It’s guarding against the air passing through the nasal cavities. I feel it’s harder to breathe as it hardens beneath my nose. My cold is getting better now, thanks to Neozep that I pop every morning and evening to remove this illness from me. This sickness got to end by Friday for I have something to attend this Saturday. It’s not runny anymore like it’s first day, when I sneeze profusely almost causing my brain to explode to pieces.

As the cold dissipates another thing I’m facing now is this mouth sore; more of a tongue sore. I must have bit this while I was sneezing consecutively last Monday night. It’s sore and swelling a bit. As I chew the slices of porkchop and rice inside my mouth during my lunchbreak, I feel the pain of my tongue as the meat is grinded. More pain is felt as I swallow the meal, even with water, it’s really hard.

I’m battling with this cold as always, and now I have to fight another enemy. Grab me those fluids and vitamin c tablet, I need my immune soldiers for this war.

I should be happy but I’m not

I’m officially depressed. Somehow it may not be seen in the surface but I really feel it. I am tired of boredom. I am sick of being helpless. I am nauseous of being pathetic. I’ve been miserable these days. A lot happened the past few days (or weeks) with my pitiful penniless life.

Financial incapabilities. I guess every Filipino or any in a third-world country have that problem. Yes, my finances are low, but I am not broke. I am not sufficient to spend with small luxuries I wanted. Though, I can still spend small portions for a little fun sometimes. If only I was born rich or having a high-earning job, or perhaps a small business I own, maybe then I will have that financial stability. I need to save and make small sacrifices because my parents need help bigtime.

Health. Not mine, it’s just this common cold that attacks me often, but it’s not the big issue here. My parents both have hypertension and they both need supplements to maintain a good health. Especially for my dad, he has a heart problem. He is still earning but it’s not sufficient to buy bottles of medicines to maintain a good health, we still have other expenses at home.

Family problems. My parents are quarreling often these days. I am extremely bothered by these situations because both of them have health problems. Before, they would quarrel over my father’s vices then next came text messages issues. Everyone at home is affected with these constant quarrels, and of course me too, for I am their only son.

I am not a hero to save me and my family from this series of dilemmas, but I must make sacrifices too. I am not the culprit to what will occur in the future, but whatever happens, it will greatly affects me.

Now tell me I should be happy.

Sanity is Beneath the Hair

Summer has arrived and we can already feel the sun burning through our epidermis. That is, if we’re outside running in the nude exploiting our genitalias to the curious public. Of course who would do that? Not me, I still have my sanity intact… or is it?

The entrance of this summer has been terrible, I fell down to misery. I’ve been in a series of dilemmas lately. It’s not over yet, currently I have my swords and ammos ready because the battle is not yet over. Actually, the battle is just starting. I haven’t reached the climax as of now.

I may not have a grip with my sanity if I’ll continue to whine about these problems I’m facing. Not all chocolates taste great. You’ll know if I lost control over my head, if my left wrist bleeds profusely from a cut, or if you’ll see me in the TV while you’re sitting comfortably in front of it see a miserable guy atop of a billboard attempting to jump. That’s when I lose touch of the so-called reality.

I guess I’m still sane for now. I’m just above of the norms… or maybe behind it. But who cares, sane or insane, that’s make me.